Currently speaking, it's the dream I had right before I woke.
In the dream I was playing outside with a friend and my old dolls. One was the American Girl, Felicity--do you remember those?--and the other was my all-time favorite, a pink bunny with sparkling plastic eyes who "sparkled" (magical term for glowed in the dark). The doll was called PJ Sparkles, and was logically named "Sparkles". Anyway my friend and I were playing outside having a good old time like we were five. The funny thing is, we were both our real-life ages: We met up because she texted my blackberry while I was at the grocery store, then I got in my car and stopped to see her on my way home to my husband, which is when we started playing with dolls, of course.
Randomly at one point in the dream a longhorn charged me, and I threw Sparkles to save myself (I would have never done that to you, Sparkles). I wonder what that meant psychologically... Most probably that's just what happens when you watch Inception followed by a documentary about North Korea before you go to bed.
The scenario ended and all of the sudden I was about 11 years old again back in my old, old house with my parents, sitting at our old kitchen table. The song Never Grow Up by Taylor Swift started playing in my head.
Then I woke up.
The song is still stuck in my head. Of course the solution would be to open my iTunes and play the song, but that might just make me cry. So I'll post it here and hope that does the trick.
Your little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
No, no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up
You're in the car on the way to the movies
And you're mortified your mom's dropping you off
At 14, there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
But don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she's getting older, too
And don't lose the way that you dance around
In your PJs getting ready for school
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
No one's ever burned you
Nothing's ever left you scarred
And even though you want to
Just try to never grow up
Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I have
Is someday gonna be gone
So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder than I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on
Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up
Oh, I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
Could still be little
Oh, I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple
Just never grow up
This is sad :(
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